Promises, Promises.

“Some people don’t understand the promises they’re making when they make them,” I said.

“Right, of course. But you keep the promise anyway. That’s what love is. Love is keeping the promise anyway.”
John Green, The Fault in Our Stars

Sometimes you have to dig to the deepest parts of your moral self to keep promises, but that’s what makes them so great! The harder they are to keep, the stronger you have to be to follow through. Promise often and fulfill them just the same!


Built Yourself on Rocks

“Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength.”– Arnold Schwarzenegger

This quote reminds me of my closest friends and their courage to ALWAYS find a route back to happiness when life knocks them to the ground. They each have been through so much and to see the strength they emit to the world – it gives me hope and allows me to find my inner fire to fight and stand tall when lifes’ storms start raging. Thank you guys for helping shape the person I am proud to be.

Why Not Start Now?

For all of the numerous years, endless days, and countless hours we spend on this earth – how much of that time is really spent the way you want?  None of that time is guaranteed and I know I want to make the most of every second.

Lately I have been inspired to do something meaningful and challenging.
Maybe take a trip or learn a new skill, I’ll let you know when I decide. But my main goal is to start slowly to live out my dreams. Why not start now?


Are you living your dream life?

The Genetic Hiccup…Misophonia

“Striving for normality
Impossible or hard to see

A simple life… can I have please?
But I’ve a demon to appease
I love you, I hate you – you make me insane!
I’ll kill you, I’ll save you then still take the blame
This hunger for silence outgrowing my brain
I desire perfection but my mind is stained

All the noises that you make (not your fault)
All the liberties you take (no, I’m the one who’s sorry…)
And the things keeping me awake (I just want to sleep forever)
I think surely… now… I am just a mistake (or is that just faulty thinking..?)

Examine me audiologically
Test results show negatively
A typical brain… can’t I have please?
Life would be such a breeze…
I take it, I fake it – you don’t see who I am
Tried many times to just not give a damn
Tried tricking myself but I see through my own scam
Been there all my life yet I don’t understand

All the noises that you make (please just STOP!)
Now little movements that you make (oh I know you can’t help it, but…)
I beg for my sanity’s sake (reason’s abandoned me for pastures anew)
I can’t help but think that there’s been a mistake (…why me..?)”

By Rod Maughan 

Love = Life

“Because everything of value that we will know in this life comes from our relationships with those around us. Because there is nothing material that measures against the intangibles of love and friendship.”
R.A. Salvatore, Passage to Dawn

Try to always keep in mind that someone loves you, and return the favor by being that person who loves another because “love and friendships are the most beautiful of things, when we get the opportunity to express either, we gain in ourselves a brighter light and a healthier life.”

Here’s to the Crazy Ones

        “Here’s to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square holes. The ones who see things differently. They’re not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can’t do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.”
― Apple Inc.

Let’s all be a little crazy and make changes to the world we live in. Let’s thrive off of our innovations, grow from our experiences, and live for a better life. Change is a beautiful thing, let’s embrace it. 🙂

Care For Them

Today at work, while my client was sleeping I sat listening to her snores and occasional sleep shouts and thought to myself ‘wow, this is an easy job’. But then I think about all the bad days that she has and and the times when I need to be 110% focused and attentive to the aches, pains, and emotional needs of my client. I’m the only one who visits regularly, I am the only one who takes her to the doctor, I am the only one who cleans her apartment, I am the only one whose actual job description is to care for them every time I come with the same enthusiasm and willingness as my own family. And this to me is not an easy job, I get to know their likes, dislikes, habits, allergies, medications…without getting too attached to them. Keeping a professional relationship maintained while being their main source of companionship is tough. Even though in general I have a client who doesn’t have a lot of needs she still needs someone and I’m glad that I can be that person. It’s rewarding! 🙂

Thanks for letting me rant. All you caregivers out there, you know what I mean. Let’s keep it up! 🙂